Learning about your own avoidant coping mechanisms is hard. It means a lot of self-correction, a lot of turning against your first inclination. It means leaning into your feelings and letting them happen and sometimes telling other people you wouldn’t normally tell. It means not making a joke or running away. It means breaking habits that feel like they’re protecting you. It means making yourself vulnerable and saying the right thing even when it scares you and you don’t believe it because that is actual therapeutic practice.
It’s hard. It’s so hard, and it’s so much work. I don’t have the uplifting part right now. It’s just hard.
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