The future is fake

Remembering that time is a thing and the future is a thing is sometimes difficult for me.

Not everything has to happen right now. Some things can be depended upon to last. The people that I love aren't going to disappear. Relationships can move at their own pace.

Intrusive Thoughts

cw: obsessive thoughts

When obsessive thoughts, intrusive thoughts, and ruminating are part of both your mood disorder and your learning disability, it can make for interesting days.

You know that conversation we had two weeks ago? It’s running through my head, word for word. And that problem I kind of need to solve? I’m working on it constantly and probably journaling about it and I haven’t gotten anything figured out yet but give me a few more weeks and I just won’t care anymore. And that song I listened to this morning? There is one single line of it that keeps playing over and over and over and it won’t fucking stop. I also read over texts that I send and posts I write so many times, just bc the words are stuck in my head.

Still figuring out how to make myself slow down enough to work on mindfulness techniques.